Finishing things

It’s often hard to keep going, to bring a project to the end. Especially when you keep some stories inside you, things you’ve heard in your childhood or teenage years. Mine is ‘she’s talented, but lazy’, meaning that I’ll never reach my potential, that I’ll never be able to be who I could become. That was what teachers were telling my parents about me, comparing me to my older sister, who was a perfect student.

‘Talented, but lazy.’ That’s the script I’m fighting every day. The script I’m trying to break. The only way I can do this is by doing things, by finishing projects, by creating what I want to create, by sticking with things I want to do.

I recently finished the NHS Couch to 5k program. I followed it for nine weeks and now I’m able to run for 30 minutes non-stop. For nine weeks, three times a week, I’ve put my shoes on and ran. I didn’t have to talk myself into it, because I knew that this was important, this was something I needed to do. I had some doubts on the way, I was asking myself why I was doing this to myself (I never liked running, if you read my newsletter you know the whole story.), not believing I would be able to finish it. But I did, I finished it, I made it to the last run and I was so proud of myself.

There’s a lesson in there, of course. Finishing projects is satisfying, but also it changes something. It makes you believe that you can, that you are who you’re supposed to be.

Amie McNee explained it beautifully in her Instagram post and I’ll leave you with it and go foe a run before it starts to rain.